This blog spot is set up for my sisters and I to vent our frustrations,keep our spirits up, and to support each other thru the time that our brother is over in Iraq. His blog spot is:

Sunday, July 31, 2005


Well tomorrow is the big ASVAB day. I have been taking the practice test that the recruiter gave me and let me tell you I have forgotten a lot of math. I feel that I will do okay I am not to worried about that. However I am worried now about the running, I just can't seem to get my breathing under control. I could run all day if I could just get my breathing right. I take in to much air then I don't take enough in then I don't breath at all. I just will have to keep trying I guess. Well this is the week my family knows what I am talking about. BJ called and I talked to Nevada for a few min and she wanted to know if I wanted to say I to Amanda I told her that was very nice of her to ask but I probably shouldn't. Then she slammed her finger in the screen door (she must get that from her dad LOL) So I got off the phone. It was hard at the moment but I am okay I used that emotion to my benefit I RAN UNTIL I PUKED. It seemed to have worked I feel okay and I am still alive. Now I just need to stay focused on the Road ahead. Well enough for tonight I need to get off and get some sleep so I can have part of a brain for tomorrow. I love you all and thanks so much for the support. I will keep you posted on the score I have to have at least a 31 to make it. Love you all good night.


Saturday, July 30, 2005

Found Another

This was at the fair in 1994.
John, Jason, Jennifer, Erica, and myself.....LOL when I look at this photo I have to laugh cause just a month earlier is when I first met Jason through Michelle. See her boy friend was best friends with Jason so they went everywhere together. When they came over one day to go riding and I wasn't invited I was so hurt, I tagged along with Belle everywhere. Well Jason told me I could ride with him and after a cat and mouse game I gave in. From that moment on I will "IN LOVE".......LMAO then when fair came a month later I was on him like super glue. When we got ready for this picture the photographer asked if any of us were dating, I wanted to say "YES" but Jason bet me to it by saying "NO!" I mean what would he want with a 14 year old.....anyways 10 years later we are still together.

The Gang

This is the last picture I have of the old days. This is all of us minus mom(she must of been the one behind the camera) and the little baby is our cousin Michael(Uncle Lewie's son)

Look at the goof ball trying to put bunny ears on a BABY, what was she thinking

Belle and Kristy

Not sure where this was or how old, I hope some of you can fill in the blanks......LOL she(Belle) looks sooooo sweet in this picture but she kicked my ass more then once and if I remember right during this picture she told me if I didn't smile then she would make me eat dirt

John, Uncle Lewie and I

Meet our Uncle Lewie. Even though there is no matching DNA he will always be our Uncle!


This is April 1981... That is my big sister Jenn!I am sure it was TJs and My birthday due to the pink bow on the floor.....LOL notice the beer cans.....our family sure knew how to PARTY

Some More Flashbacks

Isn't John so cute what a little fatty he was but a cute one

Three Little Pigglets

Can you belive this we were so cute what happend, I just kid. Well a little about this photo.
It was taken on 1981 Christmas morning at Grandma Browns. Jen was 8 yrs old, I was 3 1/2 yrs old, and Kristy was 1 1/2 yrs old. I think John was in moms belly or close to it anyways just thought i would share. Oh and look at the very handsome man in the photo. kinda looks a little like John well I guess we know where he got his good looks from. love you all

Jen and Kristy if you have any of john lets put them on I couldn't find any


Friday, July 29, 2005

Like or DisLike

Like my Avatar? Or is it to big?

I was told it is time........

to come back.....LOL the middle sister is telling me anyways. Well since she has told me I see that my oldest siser, Jen-ben-bo-ren posted. I hope the Bell-monster can get her back.

I am quite happy to see our Blogg going again, more then ever since Belle decided it was her time to "protect and serve"

My thoughs on Johns extencion............I think it is perfect. He is doing what his hearts says and even though I don't want him there any more then he has to be God puts the little thoughs in our head for a reason

I did it well almost any ways

Well I did it thrusday I went in to the National Guard Unit here and signed up. I take the ASVAB test Monday god help me it has been so long. Then as long as the score is high enough I leave on the 7th of aug to go to denver then on the 8th i finish the paper work sign on the dotted line, and get sworn in to the United States Army. I know that it is hard for my family right now seeing how my little brother just uped for another year over in Iraq. But I have a great family and they are very supportive of every thing eachother does. I want to thank my Little brother for being a good rollmodel for me and all the suggestions. I will run tomarrow morning untill I throw up. I am really very excited about all of this I think this will give me what I need to better myself and my little girls life. Thanks Kristy for every thing and I mean every thing I could list all that you have helped me with but then I would never get to sleep. and yeah I get to keep my hair. Jen thank you, you have shown me that it is never to late to reach for the stars and to move ahead no matter what thanks for every thing. Mom what can I say but you are the best a real trooper with every thing that has happend you are always there no matter what I know that if you where on your death bed you would die trying to get to one of us if we where in need I love you more that words could ever express. Dad I get my strengh from you, you never let the weight of the world get you down you keep your head up and march on. I just wish that everyone in the world had an ounce of your life in them then maybe the world would be a better place. You are an unsung hero I love you so much thanks for everything and above all never giving up. Well I love you all and can't wait untill I start my new life. I will keep all posted love and hugs


Monday, July 25, 2005

Just Another Day

Today my day started out really cruddy, but I am trying to keep an up-beat attitude about my life and the situation that I have allowed myself to get into. Life is a funny thing one minute you know what direction you are heading and the next you are at a dead end road. Well there is a wonderful and wise lady that I would like to quote " Don't cry over things that were or things that aren't. Enjoy what you have now to the fullest." Barbara Bush. What a wonderful lady. Too manys days I have woke up saddened by what I no longer have, a husband and whole family. I pitty myself for being out here alone and my family being over 500 miles away. I try to find the courage to move ahead and just make it through the day and pray that tomorrow will be better. Maybe if I hold on just another day, week, month, or year that sometime in there I will get my family back. Get the life back that I once had, But then I sit here and think the life I had was broken, one sided, all give and no take. No support, or understanding for what I was going through. What in hell would make me want that life back. I know I have asked my self this question about a million times over the past 3 years, and the only thing I can come up with is Love my heart is not ready to let go. So I wake up everyday with my head and my heart playing the tug of war game. In the end my heart always wins. I just hope for the courage to make it through another day. Waiting to find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

" Courage does not always roar. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying " I will try again tomorrow."

So with that I will try again tomorrow
I love you all

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Nevada's First Fishing Trip

Here are some Photos of the trip hope you all enjoy

Some photos of Nevada

K lets try this again

Better get my Butt in gear

I have wow really slacked on this, Not a lot has been happening and most of the time Kristy and I have been calling eachother to vent any thing. I sounds like things are settling down over in Iraq for Dust (John) well any ways a best as they can. John you need to write your mom a letter. even if it is just to say hey I love you put a stamp on it and put it in the mail. I read everyones comments that post on johns blog and try to tell you thanks if i haven't done that i am sorry we all are thankful for Dustin to have so much support around the world. I know some of you are saying Dustin well he has been Dustin to me all my life and then he grew up and wanted to be called John seeing how that is his true first name. John Dustin well any ways. less than six months to go and we will get to hug him and kiss him and all that good stuff that comes with having 3 older sisters and being the baby boy ( the only Boy) how he and my dad made it all these years it beyond me. well thanks again talk more later

Michele ( Chell)